Uncertain Certainties

SPARKS Article (Dec. 2004-March 2005 Issue)

Divine Word College of Bangued

I was once an inmate into rude pillars of failures. I thought those pillars are with me so that I can go where I want to soar, but it has enthroned me with many difficulties, anxieties and severe grievances. What will I do?

I was in that pillar for many years and I expect I will be there for the rest of my life. In that pillar, I've discovered many things, many unnecessary intuitions, and many inconveniences and sufferings. It made me fool, unruly to the things that come my way. It made me stupid to the things and blessings that enfold me. It made me incomplete for no one ever tried to look at me. It has driven me into a very cruel world for no one ever realized the way I do. It shattered all my wishes, my aspirations, my illusions and all the things I want to have, the things I want to be. It stormed the life that nurtures me for the rest of my life. It has perturbed the whole me, my idiosyncrasies, my personality and my whole being. Do you fear these kinds of failures? I hope you will not.

Those statements I have shared with you are authentic. It is an experience you will cherish for it has moral lessons. You will gain good thoughts from it. But as far as I know, many of you are uncertain to the kind of world you belong. yes, I do the same. Those I've mentioned are my reflections and they go with me. It may look ridiculous but I assure you, you will get to know more about yourself and about this world if you will do just like what I did.

Many of us are still ignorant, uncertain of the things that surround us. Sometimes we miss an action, an event, and an opportunity; and sometimes we miss the things which give significance to our life. It appears disgusting that because of failures, we come to know that we do not fit in this earth. We are wrong, my dear friends! That the only thing which comprises those is your perception of desperation. At first, I myself suffered in despair but because of the things and encounters in life, I came to realize that these are all ingredients of life. Yes, I also failed and still I failed. I'm striving hard to hold tightly the hope that will come across me. I always grasp it. You must also do that. If you do, you will be greatly unchained from atrocities. I'm not trying to convey that I'm perfect so that you will go with me. I'm just trying to impart the way we trace life.

These failures are uncertain certainties. It may be seen absurd and it may look abstract, but we must bear in mind that no matter how uncertain it is, we must always be ready to face them. Let's take courage and devotion to God for we can never surpass these things if we don't have them. Remember that God will always be with us.

I hope with this article, you will come to know the real meaning why we live behind failures.